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This is a blog post I wrote years ago. It’s interesting for me to go back and see where I was at different points in life.

I used to think that I was David experiencing life. Now I feel that I am Life experiencing David.

The more and more I sit back and witness the unfolding experience of this character named David, the less and less I am identified with his mind. For so long, my experience was the view that David’s mind projected on the day to day. I am starting to realize that this is a very limited way to see the world. Everything that is perceived through the filter of mind is based on past experience, conditioning, etc. and ultimately leads to a very biased and subjective view on the world. The more I am able to watch the mind, emotions, and impulses, the more I realize that David is just one of countless many manifestations, or another character of consciousness in this vast universe. Not too much different than any other living being “out there”…

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Explore your world

Imagine that you are walking around and all of the sudden you realize that you are in the middle of a dream. Waves of energy pulse through your body while you look around this mindscape as you imagine all of the potential. A very surreal feeling to say the least. This isn’t a concept. This is something that can actually be experienced. In fact it is something that we can practice. Eventually an experience that can occur on a regular basis. This is Lucid Dreaming.

Imagine a place where you can consciously work on things that you want to improve, whether it be sports, music, public speaking, relationships, even flying! Your imagination is the only limit. Imagine a place where you can explore this world, other worlds, your subconscious, imaginary places. A place where you can do things that you can’t do in the “real world”. Like mind over matter, walking through solid objects, flying at incredible speeds through mountain ranges, star fields, and microscopic worlds.  A place where you can defy the schemas of the physics…

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Though this post is written mostly from my perspective and my experience, it’s based on a dynamic that my girlfriend and I are consciously working with in our relationship. Much of the awareness I have gained in the last two years has been sparked by our interactions and deep discussions about our relationship and our own inner work. To make things more interesting, I’ve asked her to add her feminine voice/perspective here and there. In this process of discussing, editing and polishing this post together, we basically wound up co-writing it. In that sense it is very much a joint effort, and Beth has offered many insights and observations regarding her sense of these dynamics that have helped me deepen my understanding of myself (as you’ll see below). And for that, I have a tremendous amount of love and gratitude for this absolutely amazing woman.


An exercise in feeling and awareness

Feeling pain can be a scary thing. I’m not talking about the secondary sensation that’s left after being able to overcome (or cover over) pain; I’m talking…

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Have you ever had a longing to be with someone you love? Your significant other, your family, or friends? I think it’s safe to say that we’ve all been there a time or two (or 3 thousand). I had an experience recently that really got me thinking about a new spin (to me at least) on the present. I was dancing with my girlfriend at my place and was having an amazing time. I started to imagine that it was many years later and I was remembering this moment from that point in time. It brought such a profound feeling of presence and gratitude to this moment that I started to cry [tears of joy]. I felt so lucky to be experiencing that moment in such a profound way.

I told her what I was thinking and we had a great conversation about it. Here’s a brief summary of what we came up with:

Deepen into the moment by projecting yourself into the future and remembering back to this moment. Which can help one experience the now more fully and…

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I’ve been thinking a lot about growth lately and have noticed that I often tend to focus on the areas in my life that I’m already comfortable with and have the predisposition for. If I’m not careful, I tend to build on this current model which can greatly limit the possibilities. I have noticed though, that when I break out of this paradigm and try to dive into areas that I’m not nearly as comfortable with, things change dramatically and I experience a completely new and more expansive type of growth.

One of the most apparent examples for me is in relationship with the feminine. I have to admit that it can be really hard at times to relate with interactions based more on feeling than on intellect. Apparently I’ve built up a few walls. ;) I have to say though that I do find that when I let go of what I’m clinging to and open up to another side of the equation and really try to understand, that there is a huge shift and my world becomes much…

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Have you ever been in a situation where someone looked miserable, discouraged, mad, or somehow they just annoyed you? Have you then asked yourself, what is their problem or… why can’t they merely enjoy life instead of being such a “downer”? Well, in all honesty, I have (once or twice ;). Whether it’s someone in traffic who is honking and swearing or someone in the market who’s zooming past everyone with an angry look on his or her face, it can be easy for me to fall into judgment about them. The problem though (as if there is only one), is that I’m in no position to judge. I have no idea what’s going on their world. They could be having one of the worst days (or months) of their lives. In fact, there’s even a chance I’ve been that person (once or twice ;) and it’s funny how the perspective changes when the shoe’s on the other foot.

Anyway, this concept really hit home when I was on an airplane a few weeks back. I was sitting next to…

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Vehicle for Awakening

As the Buddhist view has consistently demonstrated, it is the perspective of the sufferer that determines whether a given experience perpetuates suffering or is a vehicle for awakening. To work something through means to change one’s view; if we try instead to change the emotion, we may achieve some short-term success, but we remain bound by forces of attachment and an aversion to the very feelings from which we are struggling to be free.

- Mark Epstein

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Running Out of Gas

Drive your car like your running out of gas…. ‘cuz we actually are running out of gas. If you pay attention to your gas mileage (via a calculator at the pump or if your car does it for you), you’ll start to notice just how much you can save by changing the way you drive. Imagine just coasting in to a red light rather than accelerating until the last second (we’ve all been there a time or two as we’re unconsciously rushing around town). You can easily save a few MPG by driving consciously which saves money, resources, and emissions.…

by David

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